Dear Elizabeth Hall

You're a total baby. I am....usually I would say sorry at this point for saying something rude, but I'm REALLY not sorry. I'm not. You are having such a cool experience. And yeah, you died but your life obviously IS NOT OVER. You're still living, you're just in a different place with COOL people. You are getting an experience that some people will never get. You get a chance to start over, make new friends, see loved ones you lost, I mean..... I would LOVE LOVE LOVE if I got the chance to see my family I've lost. I understand it must really suck to die. But why obsess over it? Why is it so horrible? Maybe I just don't fully understand because I have not died, but you have it better than a lot of people have in a life time. Your whining just really aggravated me. Your selfishness REALLY aggravated me. I don't know how one person could be so selfish! Please, explain it to me.... GOD. I can't even talk to you right now. I'm already angry and just thinking of you is pissing me off.
Your story is cool. I love your story. YOU just bother me. I liked reading about your friends/acquaintances in heaven. But, YOU BOTHER ME SO MUCH!!!!!

REALLY ANNOYINGLY NOT YOURS,
NicholleLee Robertson.

Dear Haven,

I too hold onto the past, so you shouldn't feel bad. It's a problem I have. I admit. But....I think you're kind of a brat. I'm just sayin'. I don't know. You just kind of disappointed me. It's not that I don't like you or anything, I just think you're a little dramatic and kind of a baby....yeah,....I said it. I mean, your parents are divorced...boo hoo, so are mine. You really liked your sisters ex-boyfriend, boo hoo, he's HER ex-boyfriend. Really....com'on. I don't know you just bother me, you're a brat, you whine a lot. You have it well off, you really do. So what if your dad is a little whack-o and your mom's a little eccentric. You OBVIOUSLY have not met my family. And, I'm not sittin' here complaining about my sisters ex-boyfriend, and my parents divorce, and the new husbands and wives. I mean....my mom is going on her third husband, and you don't see me all cold-hearted and hating the world. I'm just sayin'. Put a little positivity in your life. I know what it's like to be a really negative person, I used to be a really negative person. But, it just takes....a lot of work. It's better to just go with the flow and be happy. I mean, I'm not saying I'm always happy or anything, and I often do have bouts of negativity. But, you, you're just bad.
I'm sorry, I don't mean to rant and rave and tell you how annoying you are, I'm just a little annoyed. And, this was not my intent for this letter to turn out. But, I just let my fingers type what they type and don't really think about it. So, sorry, I guess this is just how I really feel.

Annoyably yours,
NicholleLee Robertson.

Dear Lloyd Dobler,

I love spending my evenings with you. Especially when I should be studying for my astronomy test. But hey, I had a really big presentation to give today on A Streetcar Named Desire and I've been working on it really hard and my professor said I "did awesome. And didn't even burst into flames! So, I thought it would be nice to end the night with you. And, I promised. And I've still been doing a really bad job of keeping up my end of the bargain. I really am sorry. But, having 18 credits means I have to sell my soul to Aquinas College and have many mental break downs throughout the way. I think you understand. But, maybe not. Anyways. I'm off to bed now, to get up early and make up for not studying for astronomy when I was with you.
I'm a bad student sometimes, but your company is company of that I can not pass up.

Your dear friend,
NicholleLee Robertson.

Dear Jake Semple,

You are the reason I started reading books. Just so you know. I read your story, and it's really the first time I read for enjoyment and actually enjoyed it. So, really, I just need to say THANK YOU!!! If it wasn't for you, I would not be the reader I am now.

Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.



Thankfully yours,
NicholleLee Robertson.

Dear Marucs Flutie,

I'M A TOTAL CREEEEEPER LIKE WOAH!
I saw you today. Well, not really you, but the you I see in my head. I saw him and my heart and stomach dropped to my feet, past my feet, and all the way to the core of the earth. I've never had that happen before... see an ordinary person and instantly know that's who a person is. Just a random picture. Of a random boy. Whom I've never met in my life and probably never will. It was just amazing.
I mean this is how I've always pictured you. In my head you've always looked like this boy. Always. He is you. You are him.
I can't figure out how... the picture in my head of you is actually a real person. And, you say, "well maybe you've seen his picture before and just meshed us together." Well, Marcus, to that I have to say, "NO!" I've never seen this person before in my ENTIRE life. But, now I feel I must meet him. Although, undoubtedly I'll be disappointed because he wont really be like you. But, you never know.
Oh god, now I really am a freak. You're not real and he's just a random person that has similar qualities to you. But...he's so you. He's so you! I can't stop thinking about it.
I need to meet him.
And talk to him.
And love him.
And marry him.
You probably think I'm being crazy, but, Marcus, you have no idea what I would do if you were real. Probably pass out at your amazingness.
But what if this boy is like you?
Do you think he is my soulmate?
Do you think we're meant to be together?
I mean how often is it that you see the love of your literary life in human form?!
I mean that's all I'm sayin'. That's all I'm sayin'!
Here he is. Here is you:

Readers: Do you know him? Have you seen him?
This is my Marcus Flutie. I'll give you a hug if you know him and introduce us.

Mr. My Marcus Flutie, will you marry me? Seriously.

I'm so......freaked out right now. It's so crazy.
So, Marcus, is this you? Is this what you really look like? I think so. I love you. I'm a total creeper. I know. Can you get in trouble for posting random peoples photos on line? I don't think so. Oh well. Also, I'm not a total total freak.

Truly, madly, deeply waiting for you,
NicholleLee Robertson.

Dear Twilight,

Why do I like you so much?! I want to re-read you. Again. And I really don't have time. And, I'm really sick of you and how popular you are, and I really don't want to. But, I feel like I have to. Arg. Why do you make me feel better? And why do I always have the innate urge to read you when I really really don't have the time??? Maybe because you're forbidden. Hehe. Har-de-har-har. ;-)



Angrily yours,
NicholleLee Robertson.

Dear Eli,

Thank you for letting her in. She needed you, and as much as you don't want to admit it, you needed her. Sometimes after a really terrible experience is the time when you meet the person you need most. And although you don't want them because you're afraid to get hurt and you just want to wallow and hate the world, you really do need them. And look, how was it you got over your friends death? Because of her. And, how did she cope with her "heartache" from her parents divorce, you. See, it's perfect. You found each other when you didn't want anybody, when you needed somebody. And that is the purest kind of romance ever. When you don't want someone, you hate yourself for wanting someone, yet you need them, you can't stop thinking about them, you love them. It really is perfect, do you see? I wish I could have the relationship you have with Auden with someone. Actually...I did have that relationship with someone, but we were both too scared. We both ran away, we couldn't do it. And there's not a day I don't think about it, or one of our adventures, or how happy I was with that person. And, it's gone now, I'll never get that love or that happiness back. But, you, you knew better. And maybe that's what makes it so pure for me and why I'm so jealous of you, because what I had of that was so perfect and you were just....smarter than me, you realized what you would lose. And although I knew what I was loosing, and I watched myself loose it, I didn't feel in control of that loss. And there is not really anything I would do now to gain that love or even that beginning friendship back. It was the best friendship I've ever had, the best and most unique love I've ever had. And when you find something like that, you just have to hold onto it as hard as you can, because you can wake up one day and it will have slipped through your fingers. So don't let what happened to me happen to you. Although, I don't think you will because you realize how important Auden is to you. You know she's the chance of a lifetime. And me? Maybe another place, another time, it would have worked. Maybe it still will. But, until then we'll never know. But, I'm so happy for you. And all I have to say is, YOU + AUDEN= EEEEEEK. That's all I'm sayin. So good luck, to you, to her, to the both of you. Hold on to her with all you've got.

Resentfully yet happily yours,
NicholleLee Robertson.