Monday, August 24, 2009

Letters to the people I actually can't talk to.

I've been contemplating what I want this blog to be about. At first I wanted to re-read my way through all the classics and write about my journey. And I still think that would be a fantastic idea. But as of right now, I don't have that time with school starting back up.
And then I got to thinking.... there are so many characters from books that I get attached to, maybe too attached. But attached none the less. And there is so much I want to say to them, etc. Like today, I couldn't stop thinking of Marcus Flutie, the love interest of Jessica Darling, the narrator of the most recent book series I finished. And I thought "Man, there's so much I want to say to him." I was craving his company almost, there were times when I walked down the sidewalk and thought someone looked like Marcus or wondered what Marcus would say about that person. Yet, he's a fictional character....he's not here. He's not even real!!! But to me, he so my head at least. Is that sane? Does that make me a total freak? Maybe. But, that's just who I am.
Anyways, so I got to thinking what if I made this a blog of letters. Letters to the fictional characters I love and can't get out of my head. What I would say to them if they were really here? Explain to them the way their words have helped me. I mean people write letters to their friends and people in their lives and in a way that's what I would be doing, these characters as creepy as it sounds, are people in my life. I spend more time in my head and in a book than I do in my own personal world.
I've gotten so accustomed to some of these characters from reading and re-reading that I feel like they truly are real people. Like with Sarah Dessen books, my favorite author, when I get into certain moods I crave the company of some of her characters so I'll go and read through the life of someone even though it will be the sixth or seventh time. And I'll feel better when I get to my favorite part or favorite line. And I wish so bad that I actually could talk to these characters in my daily life without being dubbed a totally insane freak or put into a mental hospital. I wish I could have a conversation with them.
So that's what I'll do. I'm going to write to them. My friends. From books.
And I'm not a crazy person. I swear. I just love books.

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